I am honestly a big Quitter! I am so quick to quit, it’s exhausting!

Damnnn, I ‘d just look a piece of work I made over the weeks, months and probably years, (Just softly exaggerating) and I’d just decide,

“I am so done with this shit, I nor dey do again”.
 

This was my usual way of doing a whole lot of things till I realized, it’s never always going to be this way if I wanted a visible change. So I had to first change my attitude of quitting at first glance.

Not just because I was being a coward and also a slave to fear
but also because it took me a thousand steps backwards from the first few ” Forward, Match!” I always had by a few mysteries and maybe a spoon of luck, here and there.

 ● It can’t always be this way right?

● It shouldn’t always be this way now, either.

SOMETHING HONESTLY HAD TO CHANGE!

   And so I told myself 20th had to be different, but boy, oh boy! It’s just week 3 of 20th and believe me when I say I am tired already.

I want to quit so bad but then the determination to indeed live my 20th to the fullest point where I would say;

“Oh well, I am extremely proud of you, Ade.”

Surged within me a strength I knew not I had within.
So I decided to stop lamenting and start “doing”.

Doing had me seeking for jobs at every opportunity even if it’s a voluntary job, I just want to get doing.
You might say, what is the difference in doing a voluntary job and no job at all?

It was and still is an avenue to learn and unlearn so I pushed myself till I got a voluntary job to work for a music brand.
I was the happiest that night, I was asked “are you getting payed?”

Of course not, I most definitely wasn’t getting payed but then I was learning and unlearning and I had a success story within these past 2 weeks— I would share that with you in my “COMBER” story.

    I have been shaped in numerous ways than one also this past two-three weeks, call it maturity, call it growing up… I’d say it’s making myself available enough to be shaped up.

  Trust me, There are times where I don’t want to learn and half the time I just want to be in that same spot because for me as that time, it’s a comfort zone. But then, stepping out of my Comfort zone means letting myself explore my horizons and exposing myself to things that would help immensely in my build up.

No,
It wasn’t and still not easy but I can also say it was worth it.

When people say things about me and the majority talks about how intellectually sound I am, when they speak about my morals and say good things about it.

Talk about my understanding of friendship, and prove with their lettering, how much understanding of these things I have? It’s a subtle yet firm way of telling me I didn’t let my knowledge in several aspects go to waste.

  While I am grateful for many things, After God, I am grateful for YOU! because if not for your hits and comments, I would have quitted again and once again gone to step zero.
Thank you so much for always coming through for me,
I love you dammit!❤.

And I am definitely not going to leave the chat without asking ~ “Quitting Again?”

Don’t you dare!

Sincerely, purposefully yours,
Aderounke Adewale 💫